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On January 19th, I turned 19 years old. It wasn't just another birthday. Something changed. Something in my heart changed. My attitude changed. My insights changed. My mind changed. My prayers changed. My life changed. Not because I can now call myself 19, but because God wanted to do that. That was His gift to me, in a human-understanding type of reference. Just to kind of explain if I haven't been able to talk to you...who ever you are reading this...here goes...

Tuesday- my birthday. Always fun. I love birthdays. Started out by getting a hug from a cute boy...then I had a good nights rest. I woke up...had a voice lesson, went to the gym, had class, and then got ready and I got to go home to have dinner with my family. That was so needed and wonderful, not to mention comical, because when are my family gatherings not? Then I went to younglife, which is an out-reach program for high school kids. I've been a leader since this summer, and oh how many good times have been involved with that!! I absolutely love all of the kids. So much. On top of the awesome day, I got a billion facebook notifications :) and a bunch of other special birthday treats. I love birthdays.

But what really made that day awesome was the gift of a changed heart. God has blessed me so much through that. Through the life I find in Him.

My biggest fear is getting older. I have a legit fear of it. It scares me. Hearing my parents talk about their child hood as it was yesterday gets so old(no irony intended)...but I'm starting to realize that, like with a lot of other things, they're right. When I talk about my childhood, it scares me to think of how I was once 2 years old, and how my life used to be so different, and how I'm already 19, and how when I was younger I always thought 19 was so old. "With age comes great responsibility." I love the freedom that I have now that I didn't used to have. But that old saying is true, that when we get older, we have a lot more responsibility. That scares me too...

Becoming another year older can be exciting, and birthdays are great. Those things don't change the fact that I am scared. But you know what? What better reason to cling to the mighty One? The glorious Father. I just have to remind myself that He's got this. He's got this. He's got this...

Be it 52 years old, or 19, we are called to lean on Christ. Because wherever I am when I turn 20(holy crap) next year, I am still His own, and I know He is going to continue to change my heart to be more aligned with His. And life with Christ never gets old (OK sorry! I had to! :D)

"You're altogether lovely, altogether worthy, altogether wonderful to me."

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